Damn, my internet is down, cannot blog le. Using edsel's laptop now. Im tired and sick of this, i promised myself to forget her, why am i missing her all the time now. Its really really painful inside. Why am i such a bastard, disturbing others relationship when they love each other so much. Wait for her? I could change for her, but i just dont wanna show it. Love is pathetic. Why is loving someone so difficult.